Wednesday, April 27, 2011

Start At The Very Beginning

When I first decided to start blogging I became intimidated. I had no idea where to start, which topic to post about first, or where I really wanted this blog to go. In the week since deciding to start a blog, I have been reading other blogs and trying to get ideas. I admit I am still unsure about where I want this blog to really go and what I am hoping to get from this blog in general. However, I decided the best place to start would be at the very beginning. Like the famous song goes, "....start at the very beginning, it is a very good place to start! When you read begin with ABC...." So here are the ABC's of my life!

I started out my life very young. At age 15 I had been everywhere and seen everything! Or at least I thought so. I had experienced enough of life and I was ready to be an adult. Fast forward through a life with a non-existent mother, a manipulative and controlling step-mother and the joys of high school, I finally arrived at graduation less prepared for life than I thought I was. I eventually met the one person in my life who has become my rock and my stability. At the ripe old age of 20 I was married and ready to take on the world. 12 months and 11 days later I had become a mommy. It wasn't until just recently, like a week ago recently, that I realized I truly was a baby having babies. I love my boys and would not trade them for the world. However, I will always strongly caution any child against getting married and having babies before you are 25. Go to college, date lots and enjoy young adulthood! It only happens once!

Roughly 20 months later we welcome baby boy #2 into our lives. Life was complete! We both were working dead-end jobs, had gained a ton of weight, and were barely making it through. We lived in a small 2 bedroom apartment that we began to notice we were not the only inhabitants of! I love all of God's creatures, but mice are one of those things that moves in and never moves out! To this day we are unsure why we had mice. We were the only apartment our landlord could walk in to without wearing a gas mask and needing personal protective equipment on. Maybe mice like clean as much as the rest of us. Needless to say we were extremely grateful when John landed an awesome job with a growing company! We took the money and the chance to move and got out of there!

Shortly after were were surprised to learn that we would be expecting! Again! A boy! Again! We had talked about another baby. It was all just talk. However, as we learn in 10th grade health class, talking can lead to so much more! So with a 3 turning 4 year old, an almost 2 year old and nice new apartment, we welcomed baby boy #3 into our lives! And let me tell you, this little guy lives up to his name! He is a blaze of fire and terror! Have you ever wondered what would happen if a tornado, a hurricane and a wildfire all came together? That would be my baby #3! I truly do love him though and life would never be the same without him! Maybe a little less chaotic, and definitely more boring!

Eventually we decided we were really ready to take the amazing and terrifying plunge of buying our first home. To all of you out there who have yet to experience this, I now can see the correlation between the economy dropping and divorce rates. Buying a home has to make the list of top 3 reasons people get divorce. Followed closely by money and in-laws. For all those in-laws out there reading this, I promise I did not make up that statistic. I read it....somewhere....

We did finally compromise and find a home that would suit us for the next few years. At least that is what we thought until I got the baby hunger! Now I have to be honest and say that John was more than just a little bit done with having kids. He would have been okay after number two. On the other hand I have always wanted four kids and I knew I would not be happy without having four. I just though the last two wouldn't hit so suddenly. I have heard that major life changes stimulate a release of hormones in women that makes them want to have a baby. Apparently for me the life changes all centered around moving. So I had my IUD removed and we once again talked about having a baby.

Now here is where it gets weird. I love my boys, but I have always wanted a little girl. So I decided to try and sway for a girl. I did everything I could find on Dr Google and other sites, to make it so I was having a girl. I timed it all and short of the turkey baster, yes that method is highly recommended when trying to sway for a gender, I did everything imaginable to conceive my daughter. Imagine my surprise when I heard the words, "Congrats! Definitely all BOY!"

WHAT??? How did that happen? You must be wrong! Check again! Apparently, that was the day God decided to show me just exactly who was in charge and how little control I really had over everything!



So that is the beginning of this journey! Where this journey is going to take us I am not sure, but I do know it is going to be a fun and bumpy road! Hope you stay along for the ride!